Well.. It's been a while hasnt it ? I haven't wrote a journal since New Years. Or uploaded any art either. I got my reasons for that.

One being, how my world has been slightly mad in the last month and things are just starting to settle into normality now. Between being sick, going to my first concert (Kerrang! Tour 2012 FTW ! ! ! ), being sick again (Chest infection from queing in the rain with no jacket, very smart I know), going on a school tour to Manchester (which despite getting sick again was totally awesome ! ), recovering from being sick and battling with art muses/blocks it has been a very interesting month. Today was my first full day in school in three weeks.

I havn't been doing much on dA really.. Just lurking around gathering more stuff to add to my favourites. To be honest I've been trying to distance myself from deviantart. At least from the 'pressure' of uploading art all the time. It's just my stupid perfectionist self playing up again but right now I'm trying to focus on my art, improving my skills but also my mental attitude towards it. Coz my mind has been messing me up for a long time now to a point where I almost gave up on it all. I'm currently working on this course/project thing that should be good for improving my mental and creative blocks.

Oh and I deleted my old !BlueBeats account. And my tumblr. And I think I'm gona clear out my gallery. Coz there isn't many devinations I really want to keep anymore. I'm thinking about deleting this account too... The internet while being a good source of advice and inspiration, is sooo distracting. Especially when you're like me and beat yourself up about not being as good as other artists. Although I'm not quite as bad as I used to be I don't want to fall into old habits. I want to improve and always enjoy my art so I can be up there with the best of them someday ! !

Part of me wants to delete this account. The only thing keeping me is the username (I actually like it ) and one or two friends here I'm not friends with on Facebook.

But yeah... Just putting that out there. I don't think I really need to add to the dArma but I just wanted to give those who could possibly care a heads up. Yup Yup.

Weell thats all I can think of to say for now..